48 שנה לאחר מוות קליני: "כשנכנסתי לתוך האור, הבנתי שאני לא בעולם הזה"

“I was in the World to Come” Rare monologues of people who experienced clinical death My name is Rachel Noam. I experienced clinical death or what is referred to as a near death experience 48 years ago, a short time before the Yom Kippur War. I was walking on Bograshov Street in Tel Aviv, It was the corner of Buki ben Yogli (Street). There was a building being constructed. A piece of scaffolding fell from the roof, about 6 meters long, which fell straight on my head. At the same moment that the scaffolding fell on me, I left my body. Meaning, my soul left my body, and afterward, I returned

again. Now I will tell the whole story which happened. I would like to first state that this happened 48 years ago. I was born and raised in Kibbutz Ruchama of the Shomeir Hatzair Understandably, I had now idea I had a soul, I knew nothing of Judaism, I never saw a synagogue, I never saw a Torah scroll, I had no connection to Judaism. So, at the moment the board fell on me, and I left my body, I found myself floating at a height of approximately 4 to 5 meters, which is approximately at the second floor level. The building was four floors high on pillars, which is approximately five floors

high. I was floating approximately at the second floor level. I see my body, I see the street, all the people. This situation was very, very strange since I did not know at all that I had a soul. Certainly, I never thought that I could see when I was not in the body. I totally identified myself with my body. But, so I was floating. I have many, many thoughts: Now, I am not in the body, I see, I hear and I have thoughts, I feel, but, in actuality, I cannot communicate with any one since I am not in the body, since the body is in the physical world. Many people were on the street at that hour.

It was the late morning. The people were very frightened. There were screams. I wanted to tell them that I feel fine, I feel more than fine, I feel wonderful! But I cannot tell them since I am not in the body. In the body, I use the body’s organs to communicate, but I am not in the body. I cannot speak. I cannot do anything. After several moments, the whole street begins to get blurry. I enter into a cloud, a fog similar to a flight when the plane takes off and there are clouds, and it enters into the clouds. Similarly, in such a manner, I enter into a type of cloud, a type of fog. I begin…

When I am in the fog, I do not see or hear what is going on in the street, but I am still thinking, my thoughts continue. I think to myself, “I feel really good!” I am not afraid of anything. Nothing hurts me. The body is not limiting me. I feel great. After several moments in the cloud, I enter into darkness, a very, very heavy darkness. This is not a darkness we experience in this world, since in this world there is always a little bit of light. But I see at the edge of the darkness, the moment I see, there is a point of light. And then a tunnel appears, and then I feel I am being drawn or

magnetized to that point of light which is very, very distant like some small star. I am flying at great speed toward the Light. Now, even while I am in the darkness, I feel wonderful. I am not scared, I have no problem with myself. But at a certain moment, I exit the darkness and enter into the Light. At the moment that I enter into the Light, I realize that I am no longer in this world, I am beyond the boundaries of this world. This Light is of a type which is fundamentally different from all light we recognize here in this world. We recognize the light of the sun and many other forms of

light we kindle. But this is not similar to any light. Its intensity is much more powerful. It is much more intense than the light of the sun. The one thing I want to do is to close my eyes, but I cannot close my eyes since I am not in the body. I am exposed to the Light totally. I also feel that it’s not like I reached the Light as if I entered a room and sat down, and I’m in the room. But rather I reach the Light, and I continue being drawn more and more into the inner dimension of the Light, into the Light. Its strength is growing constantly. It’s very hard for me to tolerate it. I don’t

have eyes so I can’t close them, and I cannot hide from the Light. I understand, I feel that it is not just light, It is the conglomeration of all good things we know in this world. There is an expression that the Upper World is called “the World which is all Good” So any good thing we recognize in this world is included in this Light: Starting with infinite intelligence, infinite love, infinite mercy, everything, infinite power. All is included in this Light. At the moment that I feel that I am already fusing with this Light, and it is difficult for me, and I can’t take it anymore, the Light

begins to communicate with me. This communication in Chassidic thought is referred to as seeing above comprehension. But in terms with which perhaps people are more familiar this is called telepathy, a more familiar term to us, meaning, a method of transfer of thought. I understand that the Light knows everything about me and knows me and my life and everything I did. The first thing the Light does when beginning to communicate with me: it shows me my entire life. When I begin to see my life, I no longer suffer from the intensity of the Light. I simply see like a 3-D film similar to what

exists today in an IMAX. And I see my whole life from the moment I was born until the moment I fell in the street. Now, this story happened when I was 22 years old. It happened 48 years ago. It was many years ago. I was very young. I had no notion of Judaism or Kabbala or anything else. I see my whole life from the day I was born until that day I fell in the street, 22 years. I see everything. It passes, everything in 3-D. The Light has no criticism or anything else to comment on my life. It simply watches together with me. It does not say anything to me whether I did good or not good. But I

feel as I am seeing my life, I feel an enormous feeling of missed opportunity, that the life I am seeing is not the life I was supposed to live. This is not my story. I have a much greater story. I have not yet lived the life I am supposed to live. I did not do, I did not fulfill the mission for which my soul was placed in a body, That is what I can say now, but then it was somewhat different. At the moment I finished seeing my life, the Light asked me if I certify that this is my life. I said to It, “Yes.” We know that the “Upper World” is not just the “World which is all Good”, it is also

the “World of Truth”. Meaning, it doesn’t appear to me that anyone can deny, in such a situation, his life and what he did here in this world. But the first thing I say to the Light is that I want you to return me into the body. And the Light asks me, “Why do you want to return into the body?” I answered It that I feel that the life I lived is not the life I was supposed to live. I did not know exactly how to explain to the Light what life I was supposed to live. I myself did not exactly know, but I just knew that this wasn’t it. This wasn’t the life I was supposed to live. But the Light

didn’t respond to what I said. Then I started bringing all kinds of other excuses. And I said to the Light, “I can’t. I have to meet my husband. He’s coming in the afternoon. I need to meet him. I need to return to the body.” The Light still didn’t acknowledge, didn’t respond, didn’t say anything. Then I said to the Light, “If you don’t return me now, I will not be able to return any longer.” He asked, “Why won’t you be able to return?” “Why do you think you won’t be able to return?” I said to It, “Because I feel that I am being nullified.” As an aside, every moment I was in the Light, I was

less of an existence, more and more nullification to the light. “I feel that I am simply being nullified, and in another moment, I will forget that there is existence at all and that there is This World and that there is something called life, and I am simply being nullified into the Light, and I will no longer be an existence, I will not be able to return. For that reason, I will not be able to return.” At that moment, I felt great mercy of the Light. With the strength of mercy, I found myself back in my body. Now, I was extremely confused. What happened in the interim… People always ask me

at this point, “How much time did this take?” I don’t know how much time it took since it was beyond time. Now, as I mentioned there were many people on the street. Understandably, at the moment it happened, all the people stood still. There were screams. When I returned into my body again, I heard all the people screaming. I was so involved in the experience. I also couldn’t speak. The first thing I did was stand up on my feet, I looked at the sun, and told myself, “How pale the light of the sun is with respect to the Light I saw outside the body!” The second thing I told myself was, “How

good it is that the Light which illuminates Up Above where I was does not illuminate here in this world, because I wouldn’t be able to stay in the body even for one moment if this Light would illuminate here.” No one could stay in the body at all. We would simply leave the body. With all the screams, I remember I stood up and burst into tears. For 3 hours I couldn’t speak. Next to me stood a very large woman with blonde hair. She told me, “Lady, you have to go to the synagogue to say the blessing of thanksgiving!” I looked at her, “What is a synagogue? What is the blessing of thanksgiving?” I

had no idea. Understandably, I didn’t go, since I had no idea what that is. I took the prayer-book, I lay down and began to read. Suddenly, I entered into a very great storm of emotion. The first passage: “I thank you Living G-d that you have restored my soul with compassion, great is your faithfulness.” Now, I remembered: that which returned me into the body was the power of the great mercy of the Light. It was very great mercy. With this mercy I returned to the body. I said, “Maybe here is what I am looking for, for seven years already!” I was looking at all the people. I see they are all

walking, worrying, getting angry, their facial expressions. I think to myself, “Why don’t all these people know that there is a Light which watches over us and guides the world. There is nothing at all to worry about because everything is from Him. He is with us all the time!”