יש לך 2 דרכים לעזוב את בית הכלא...

and the uh Warden later told me there are two ways to leave this prison you can talk or you can use the bar over the door to hang yourself one or the other so I sat down and um I didn't want to die but I couldn't say talk so what did I do I finally had to make the I I became reacquainted with a because I said I can't do this on my own it's beyond me I need help so at that point I negotiated with Hashem like a ainu i negotiated with Hashem and I said I will do this this this and this if you save me and those promises I keep to this day