"על מה שרפתי 30 שנה מהחיים שלי?!": דוקו "הגומל"

I was started going to meetings twice a day. The only day I missed was Yom Kippur. I had to put my sobriety above everything because anything that I put before my sobriety, I knew I was going to lose, including my religious observance, including my children, including my husband, including everything.

Sobriety has to be number one or I'm going to lose everything else. After those the first 3 months is when I started to open up the channel to God and start to have relationship with God in a way that I never had before. I'm in a personal relationship with God where I talk to God all day.

I came to believe that a power greater than myself was going to restore me to sanity. Um because I clearly was not going to be able to restore myself to sanity. So I had to count on God to do that. If I can't stay sober by myself, then there has to be something else keeping me sober. So I have to thank God because it has to be God. It's nobody else. It's not me. So who else can it be? So I just thank you, God. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for keeping me sober today. Like I just don't take it for granted. I know how fragile my sobriety is and I'm just so grateful that you've allowed me the

gift of this day sober and you've given my children the gift of a sober mom and my husband the gift of a sober wife and I have control over my own actions. That's it.